Feeling unwanted is probably one of the hardest feelings to have to deal with. Loneliness is a killer. Literally.
Then having the need to be independent and free makes it really difficult to accept love and a relationship. So is it truly about being unwanted, or is it about not accepting the love that is offered?
I feel like my whole life is this cycle of wanting a relationship, a guy coming along, giving it a try, freaking out because of my need for freedom and adventure and then dealing with loneliness and feeling unwanted, when in reality it’s just because I push them away, not because I’m unwanted.
Trying to figure out how to go about ending this cycle. I am learning. I’m figuring myself out. Who says you can’t have love, a good relationship, adventure and independence at the same time? Just have to find the person with the same vibe, I guess?
Where are you, love?